an annonymous thanks

I just need to say thank you. You were there for me when I needed someone the most. As much as I care about what you think about me I knew you wouldn't judge me. You let me talk about what I couldn't say to anyone else. You cared when you could have turned away. I hope one day you will know that you probably saved my life. For that I will always love you.

this is me

In case you were wondering who Just Coleen is...well this is me.

honesty

So I think I need to be honest with myself...since I can't sleep anyway. I am in love with him and I have been for a very long time. When I had him I did everything to see how far I could push him away. I never appreciated what I had. I was only concerned about what I did not. I am left being alone and wondering if I did everything wrong because it wasn't meant to be or if I did everything wrong because I am afraid to be happy. I know at times I wasn't happy but I wonder if its because I wasn't doing anything to fix it. I always expected him to change when I should have taken a look at myself. Do I still feel this way after all these years because there is something real between us or is it because I just don't know how to let go? I wish someone would tell me the answer so I could either be free or figure out how to get him back.

my first blog

this is my first blog ever. Doubt anyone will ever read it. I have no idea what this blog will be about but just kinda wanted to start one. I should be asleep right now but I'm not. That's pretty much the story of my life. I'm a procrastinator that can even procrastinate on going to sleep. I highly doubt that anything in this blog will ever be funny or interesting but who cares? This is my blog and I can do what I want with it!